Guilt Complex

He was my closest friend

From childhood

Shared good and bad time

Together

Always wanted me

To reach greater heights

Started disapproving

The ways and means

I used to fulfill my dreams

My failures created doubts

For him in my mind

Started blaming him

For what I could not achieve

Held him responsible

For all my failures

Our friendship fell apart

I had lost someone

Who was my life’s part?

Time passed

I faced defeat after defeat

My progress halted,

Growth retorted

Until I realized

I was not doing the right

Remembered

What my lost friend

Had advised

Unwillingly did,

What he had suggested

Changed 

My ways and means

Started tasting

Success after success

My dreams were fulfilled

But kept suffering

From the crime

I had committed

I had doubted

My friend’s integrity

Never cared for his

Love and sincerity

The guilt complex

Never allowed me 

To live happily

I had lost courage 

To face him

For my wrong doings

Tears keep coming 

To the eyes

I feel all my achievements

Are tainted and farce

How to win him back ?

Is now my goal

16-12-2011

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