After Committing a sin

After

Committing a sin

I was living

In great trauma

To my heart and mind

My heart told me

To confess my sin

My mind said

Keep it hidden

Once it is out in open

You shall fall

In the eyes of

The people

You will be labeled

A sinner

I was in a dilemma!

I asked my conscience

What to do?

My conscience

Told me to confess it

If I do not

I will remain a sinner

In my own eyes

Shall Lose

Peace and solace

Always live

With guilt

In heart and mind

I decided to do

What my conscience

Advised

Today

My mind and heart

Are full of

Happiness and peace

23-08-2012

690-50-08-12

Dr.Rajendra Tela,Nirantar 

Guilt Complex

He was my closest friend

From childhood

Shared good and bad time

Together

Always wanted me

To reach greater heights

Started disapproving

The ways and means

I used to fulfill my dreams

My failures created doubts

For him in my mind

Started blaming him

For what I could not achieve

Held him responsible

For all my failures

Our friendship fell apart

I had lost someone

Who was my life’s part?

Time passed

I faced defeat after defeat

My progress halted,

Growth retorted

Until I realized

I was not doing the right

Remembered

What my lost friend

Had advised

Unwillingly did,

What he had suggested

Changed 

My ways and means

Started tasting

Success after success

My dreams were fulfilled

But kept suffering

From the crime

I had committed

I had doubted

My friend’s integrity

Never cared for his

Love and sincerity

The guilt complex

Never allowed me 

To live happily

I had lost courage 

To face him

For my wrong doings

Tears keep coming 

To the eyes

I feel all my achievements

Are tainted and farce

How to win him back ?

Is now my goal

16-12-2011

1865-33-12